I had a particularly bad month: My phone has a virus and it’s destroying the system from within and the three hours I wasted on the net, searching for an appropriate anti-virus, with my eyes squinting and the screen glowing on my face, seemed every bit excruciating. Also, my sleep pattern refuses to change even with my mother threatening me that she’ll wake me up at six (Six! Lol! That’s the time when I sleep) even if I now look like a raccoon human hybrid or Panda hybrid or whatever.
So that means, when the vacations end, I’ll still be going to sleep in the wee hours of the morning and then waking up like a tortured inmate. Lovely.
Anyway, the point of this blog begins now: I’m a skeptic so when my friends started going to their different universities while I lay in my bed all day long listening to angst ridden tunes, I thought whether we could still be the same tight bunch of friends that lived every moment in the past two years.
When I discussed the ‘nonchalance’ of one of our friends that only occasionally shows her face now to X, she replied: “They have new social lives now and we have to accept that we can not share everything the same way we used to. Sure, I’ll love to tell you all about the chick who wears purple lipstick but you don’t know her so you won’t understand. It’s about proximity which we don’t have anymore.”
I have to concede here though I did spun off into my lengthy diatribes which Nix patiently listened. Maybe I have a lot of time, thus the reason I spent so much time thinking about it and it’s driving me peanuts.
I wonder if I would drift away too when I join college in a couple of months, whether I, too, would have a cool swagger that would stumble when my old friends would poke fun of it and I would give a haughty ‘I am the shizz’ look and boast about how badass I’ve become. In my head, that sounds pretty far-fetched.
I’ve learned that you can’t chase after people to stop them from leaving but it would be a cold day indeed when YOU would leave. Now, I’m beginning to think if there was ever a ‘forever’ in our BFF.
Listening now: Quoth the Raven by Eluveitie.